Hi my darling, well am having another awful day, i feel like im going mad. Ive been like a screaming banshee today, am just not coping very well at all. I hope that ur coping ok up in heaven my angel, i really just need to be with u then i know everything would be ok, u see i worry about u all the time, i worry incase ur scared or ur lonely and i dont want to be like this forever as its not fair on zac. I made him cry lastnight as i was shouting at him then again today all ive done is shout at him. The sooner we are with u the better baby. Love you and miss you millions honey xxxxxxxxxxxxx