Hello my gorgeous Ben, well its the day before new year, i remember how you used to try and stay awake for the new year coming in and you would give me the biggest kiss and cuddle and you would say "happy new years mummy". I miss you so much my darling and the thought of going through another year without you is just unbearable. I dont want people to say happy new year to me as its not going to be a happy year at all, it going to be another year of being miserable and crying every day, just the same as its been for the past 2 and a half years since you left. Love you forever, forget you never my darling xxxxxxxxxxxxx